pssshhh....

today, i was in uni from 7.15...
today i studied in the cafe ; like SOLID 2 HOURs of study.. like from 8 ish to almost 11.. so makes it almost 3 hours... i had a bit of lunch and *missing time frame of events* until 3...

I had an exam today.. and i am happy cuz i actually knew what i was dong for once.. of course being a little relaxed from watching half hour of a movie and other things helped me to focus in the exam..

well... after the exam, i decided i earned myself some time out.. so i went to a LAN party till 6 and then...
yes folks.. i watched a mushy movie.. cried my ass off in the uni library.. thank goodness i have a hoodie to protect my face from prying arseholes...if not, MALU!!!!

hahaha..
this was a really good movie.. im considering downloading it cause its a good cry movie... i mean.. WOW... a lil bit predictable...
boy is an ass.. boy gets punished.. boy meets girl.. girl helps boy.. boy falls in love with girl.. they get together.. girl dies...
but i really love it.. its a love story, so its good to me.. hahahaha..
other than that.. nothing much today weh.. now..

BACK TO MICROBIO!!!

||:::|| Emo Day ||:::||

today is my emo day... didn't do any work today..
my usual study group is not here today.. all of them are doing assignments in the library.. I'm stuck here 'PMS'ing..
being single is really getting to me.. watching all the couples consoling each other all day.. loving each other... making each other feel good... i hate it.. someone was scolding me today for wanting to get together with my crush... i was accused of acting as someone that i am not just to impress the girl...

HELLOOOO!!!!

do i look like im trying to impress anyone??? i am myself and nobody else..

i like acting like a kid..
i like doing crazy stuff..
i am completely mad in the eyes of those who don't know me..
I'm even worse in the eyes of those who know me..
a lot of people dislike me for being open about what i really am..
i know my weaknesses and strengths..

all in all.. I'm comfortable with who i am.. so why should i care what others want me to be.. i was just advising my friend the other day..

DO WHAT YOU WANT , NOT WHAT YOU THINK OTHER PEOPLE WANT...

i am only taking my own advise cause i never EVER want anyone to be fooled.. i never want to lose a friend or someone more important because they were lulled into thinking that i am not what i really am.. i am just making sure that nobody gets hurt later in life..

i mean.. its kinda my fault for not toning down on my wacked atitude.. but yea.. i like myself..
maybe i shall try it for a month.. act like someone that i am not.. ...
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nope.... never gonna be able to live with myself for doing that..

haihz... to find people who are able to appreciate me for who i really am is hard.. so thats why i keep a small group of friends.. and an even smaller group of close friends..

if i ever hear people saying that im acting like someone else, im gonna be super pissed..

hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...



a face in despair is not a mask that i wear,
its what i am, and thats how you have to accept me to be..