:: Disturbed::

one thing i should never do in my life ever again is get wasted... never ever.... and one more thing i should never do is to let myself believe everything people told me... for you see, when you are told the truth after being told a lie, it hurts like hell...

now that i know the truth, i cant get it outta my head.. i just wanna rip my hands off.. wanna scream till i bleed... wanna kill myself... wanna cry.... wtf....

loathing myself... pining for time to reverse itself... im so sorry for what i did.. being drunk is not an excuse... i didnt even know until sumone told me a day later... im really so sorry... i really am....if u wanna come up to me and just slap me in the face, or crush a couple bricks into my face, please feel free to do so...

im never gonna forgive myself for this.. never... = (