yo peeps... yes i know i havent posted i a lOoooong time.. im so sorry... university is just not forgiving.. =S
well.. now im here today.. and im completely weak... my several bouts of illness has helped along with this.. how weak am i??
well, first of all, i sit down for an hour and if i stand after that, i get dizzy... ( no i dont have anemia...)
secondly, i am unable to complete 5 reps of push ups.. ( i used to do 30 easily and max out around 40 -50)
and then, i cant get up after lying down ( i used to do 200 sit ups- 100 in a go)
worse yet, i am out of breath walking one flight of stairs.... ( i can actually run all the way from pyramid to uni and still have stamina to run up to the 5th floor to make it for lab)
im completely messed up... for those who didnt know, i was down for a few days with severe dihorrea and vomiting about two weeks ago... then, immedietly after recovering from my illness, we had continuous dance training, almost everyday for a week and a half due to a concert that we were having, during that period, i had less than 3 hours sleep daily in order to finish up my assignments and stayed awake 2 days in a row, relying on redbull too keep me going..
then the day before the concert, i was at the stage, setting up the area for hours on end, not having the time to eat and drink... so i wasnt feeling too good..
.........then...... it happened.....:::
the practice that nite dragged on till late.. and i couldnt go home.. so i had no choice but to bunk at my friends place..
..................and i had, again , little sleep...
.................and i had the concert that night..
..................and i downed some more red bulll...
....... then i decided to have lunch.. so guess what happened..
while having some hot curry, i start choking and all the rice and curry comes out my nose, causing my throat to swell up......
so i was obvoiusly making a major fool of myself during the concert, plus my lumpy sides showing at everry opportunity.. and to make things worse.. i had only 3 ppl come up to me and wish me... while the rest were happily taking photos and laughing with all their friends who came to see THEM dance, i was the cleanup crew with a little help from victor... i still have no idea how many of those 200 odd ppl came to see me, and i guess i wont know.. but my guess stands at 3... bad mood as i was already in, it got worse as the night progressed... the highlight being the super afterwards, with that " kampung feller" and the "stoopid guy"..
so, the 3 dys after that which were last friday, saturday and sunday... i couldnt eat... and once i had a first meal on sunday, my throat started cracking up and bleeding.. monday was better, tuesday, only a little sore, and today is no pain, but i still cant taste at all..
so its all messed up..
and i have mutton curry to balme..
messed up.... =S
moral of the story...
1) dont ever expect ppl to support you at events... they all messed up
2) dont ever expect that you will have any good feelings ant any times..
3) FTW for letting me be this emo
4) F the people who say that im being childish and that all i pointed out is a small matter ( it may be small to you ppl with loaded pockets and many supporters, but this is one of the few things that i can do to make a diff, and nobody , not even my parents, saw that...)
5) just FTW...
*i dont like feeling this way.. i dont like expressing myself this way either.. but since all reliable ears are not available or a few weeks now, FTW!!!!
* i think FTW means Fuck The World.... if it doesnt, it does now...
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